#001 Who The Fuck Is LucidBirk ?!

An Introduction

Yo, what‘s up!

I‘ve been working on a little project of mine for a while now. It‘s about time I took the next step and made my introduction.

Hi, I‘m Birk! Long story short, I‘m just some kid of 23 years old, who always dreamed of becoming a god. Fun fact, when I was 14, I dedicated pretty much my entire time to pushing my lucid dreaming abilities to the limit to find and defeat god in my dreams, so I could become one myself.

Well, I failed. Such is life. Still love lucid dreaming though and perhaps the whole god thing is gonna happen eventually, but probably not anytime soon. Right now, I‘m just trying to turn myself into the man I was meant to be and create the work that I wanna be doing for the rest of my life.

And as my profile on every single social media app that I have and probably will barely ever use says:

I‘m a life coach, blog author, and podcast host!

Kinda! Eventually… I‘m getting there ok!
Surprisingly, I already have my first clients now, even though I‘ve still barely just (mostly) finished building my website. So now, I actually (semi-) professionally help people grow into who they were meant to be and build better lives for themselves. And I gotta admit, I love every second of it.

It‘s heavy work being responsible for the well-being of another human being like this, knowing fully how difficult it is to inspire change for the better and how easy it is to screw something up and completely knock someone over who is already in an unsteady position. But for the first time in my life, I can say that this is what I was meant for.

Everything in my life has prepared me for this. The constant pondering and lying awake at night. The overthinking, experimenting, and charging head-first into metaphorical brick walls to figure out what the right way forward is. As well as the long and painful childhood of being this unusual and unpopular kid, looking at life from the outside, studying and analyzing it, to make sense of it and one day find my place in it.

Well, I have found my place.

Now I want to get started on my blog, giving you my two cents on what makes a good life. Soon a podcast with all sorts of interesting people I meet in my everyday life will follow. In all my endeavors I pursue a very balanced approach, mixing lifelong learnings from an overthinker with zen philosophy, stoicism, red pill talk, and a lot of no-fuck-giving. Generally, I‘m not gonna tell you what you wanna hear. I‘m gonna tell you what you need to hear, even if it sucks. You‘re welcome.

To give you an idea of the topics I cover, here are some examples of the things I have studied over many years, in theory and practice, and highly advocate for.

Physical & Mental Health

Nothing can be achieved without good physical and mental health. Having those things is almost considered a joke these days, as we have grown so accustomed to being sick and unhappy. Well, it shouldn‘t and doesn‘t have to be.

To get one‘s physical health in order I advocate for many large and small habits, like daily exercise, a steady sleep schedule, a healthy diet, as well as some more edgy things like breathwork and hot & cold exposure.

The mental is a lot less straightforward as all things from physical health, your finances and opportunities, as well as very much your relationships affect it. But to make it short: Put your damned phone away more often than not, learn to love yourself even if it‘s hard, meditate, and treat the people in your life well.

Personal & Spiritual Growth

Personal growth is what I call growing into the adult that you were meant to be. In a world where men grow up with absent fathers and women choose pop stars as role models, that is no easy feat.

In topics of spiritual growth, I talk about the incredible power of meditation and mindfulness. Cutting out all distractions and connecting to our minds and bodies, before connecting to the rest of the world. Oh, and I nerd out about lucid dreaming. A lot.

Social & Love Life

The level at which our happiness is dependent on how good our relationships are is insane. Building meaningful friendships, finding the right social circles, as well as overall confidence is what I include in social life.

Now for the cherry on top. In a world of Tinder, meaningless flings, guys who don‘t know what women want, and women who… well… also don‘t know what they want, finding love and connection, or even just satisfying sex can be a real bitch. As probably my favorite topic to talk about I want to shed light on the difficulties we face in dating these days, the incredibly stupid expectations we have of each other and ourselves, well, and the intricacies of great sex. Understandably, I‘m gonna have to spend a lot of my time studying these topics in great, practical detail. But that is a sacrifice that I am willing to make for your education. So once again, you are welcome.

Now, after living a life of continuous challenges that knocked me the fuck down and forced me to get back up anyways, I can assure you there‘s a lot more to the story. But if you wish to hear it, then you‘ll just have to visit my website, follow me on social media, and keep reading these blogs that I pour my heart and soul into. Dear reader, thank you for being here with me.

„But like, how you doing though, B?“

I‘m alright, I guess. I finally found an apartment after looking through overpriced and poorly located crap for months. Frankfurt sure is a bitch when it comes to that. It‘s gotten to the point that I‘ve been so frustrated about it, I punched a metal wall at the last party I went to. Damned hand is still swollen. But hey, you shoulda seen the other… wall. Now that I have a place to live, calm is setting in again. It‘s like the calm after a storm to be honest.

These past few months I‘ve just been working nonstop. Working to set up my website and all my services. Working to find a new apartment cause my old contract was running out. And on both, it‘s just been work, without any sort of rewards along the way. There was nothing that gave me energy or gave me something in return for all my suffering. But that‘s life sometimes. Oftentimes, actually, especially as a man. And then you just gotta find a way to make it work. You have to keep working even when you have no joy or motivation left. You have to take breaks and do the bare minimum to recover, even when you feel like you can‘t afford to take time off because otherwise you‘ll simply break down, get sick, and lose even more time. Most importantly, you have to somehow keep the faith that whatever you‘re doing will work out in the end, even when you have absolutely no proof of that and just wanna give up, roll over and die on a daily basis. The last few months have been rough. But I persevered and of that I am proud.

Thank you for asking.

In other news

I ain‘t even gonna touch getting started with the podcast for at least a few months. There‘s so much other shit to do. Then again, after saying something like that I usually set out to do the exact opposite, so we‘ll see.

Stories from the Beyond

The following are a few excerpts from my dream journal, where I write down the often lucid and vivid adventures I have in my dreams on a nightly basis. I hope you enjoy… and don‘t get disturbed by them too much ;)

08.03.2024 The Mom Nightmare

I‘ve had some interesting dreams tonight. First I had a horrible nightmare, that was Supernatural based. I was in some alternate reality as Sam and there was a large creature chasing directly behind me with swords for arms. Similar to a necromorph, absolutely terrifying. I ended up escaping from it in an Outlast scene where I threw doors behind me closed to slow it down and then hid under a bed. It couldn‘t find me there and left the room. Ironically afterwards my mother entered the room and I remember being just as scared of her as of the monster. And the sad thing is that she noticed me under the bed instantly and it terrified me. She didn‘t do anything but in my mind, my mother seems to be worse than a malformed creature with blades for arms. I woke up from that terrified and pondering my real fears.

Later when I went back to sleep I had some very shallow dreams where everything was blurry or partially black. Always a shame, but nothing you can do. That‘s just the circumstances of my life right now. I am not happy, I am scared as fuck and alone with my fears. That doesn‘t lead to good sleep. I did have some short but nice sex dreams though and managed to do sixty-nine with a woman in my sleep, which is a lot more mentally taxing than you’d think. When your concentration is responsible for the sensation on both ends at once, it’s easy to slip and not feel one of those parts.

15.03.2024 Fuck Walls.

In one dream I carried a woman around that I wanted to fuck. Wanted to go to some back room with her in an office. Just when I opened the door, there was a wall. So I pushed the damned wall back with all my strength and sure as hell the wall moved and as I already knew in my head there really was a room behind there.

In other news, I was in an underwater world where everything was squidlike with many many eyes. It was so fucking gross and I kicked it all away from me. I do not wanna cuddle!

In one dream I was doing something like Kung Fu with a group again. That felt nice, going through forms and shit, not constantly beating on each other.

28.03.2024 The Zen Warrior

I‘ve had some really funky dreams tonight. I‘ve been very zen. In one dream I just meditated in the lotus position for 20 seconds. It doesn‘t sound like much, but my dreams are always so chaotic, and from one scene to the next, that just holding still while the world around me moves is difficult. I ended up giving in though. The dream gave me some sort of chance to still „win the game“ last second and I jumped on it and fell for it, falling for the idea that there is a game instead of playing by my own rules. In another, I just licked a beautiful girl for almost a minute. I could practically feel myself holding onto the dream and stopping it from moving on.

There was one where I went through three scenarios discovering three powerful warriors, according to the dream who have all actually lived but were probably fake names. The first one I don‘t recall well, but believe it was a mature samurai with a long katana. Really epic and zen. I became those people while I went through those scenarios and did some moves with their weapons. At the end of each, I received a ring symbolizing their unique traits and was considering getting something like that irl while dreaming. The second was an exiled Viking warrior. An aggressive masculine guy, not sure what his fighting style was, let‘s say an axe. The last I remember the best, it was Mulan. As her, I was dual-wielding swords and attacking into the air. But there were multiple sets of swords I tried, one was a pretty standard set, and the other was two buster swords that I swung with all my strength. That shit was epic and the moves were pretty cool.

Thank you for listening!

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